xsleepysenx
Level 1
OOC INFORMATION
IGN (In-Game Name):
DysisRP
What is your Discord username?:
@ xsleepysoulx
What is your time zone?:
PST: Pacific Time Zone
Describe your activity on the server:
I have been on this server for a month or two, and I have been active almost every day. I can get on and stay on for many hours at a time if needed, as I am disabled irl and do not have much to do irl! I can be on at any time of the day!
List your current roles on the server:
[Grade-12]- Mikhail ‘Mi’ L. Vasilyev
[Grade-12]- Loretta ‘Lou’ A. Rossi
[Grade-12]- Inali L. Katakuri
[Grade-7]- Désirée "Desi" Y. Holts
Link any previous applications:
[Other] Height [Accepted]
[Language] Korean [Accepted]
[Language] Italian [Accepted]
[Language] Russian [Accepted]
[Language] Russian [Denied]
[Language] Russian [Denied]
What position are you applying for (Maiden or Priest)?
Shrine Maiden.
What is your motivation for applying?
Besides being a grade 12, I feel like being a shrine maiden would be rather fun! I'm able to spend a lot of time in the Shinsei Seinaru Monastery. I would also like to aid and help guide others, as well as bring a new face to light, and assist those in prayer. I've never applied for something like this, and I feel as if it’ll be something new and fun. I've also interacted with some of the shrine maidens and priests a few times and have been wanting to get into the religious side of Katakura/SRP. I also want to become a part of a specific in-game community, and I think the Shrine Faction is the perfect one for me! I feel as if it’ll be fun to host events, whether they be small or large, as well as meeting new players!
What do you currently know about Shintoism? Are you willing to learn more about it?
As of now, I know that Shintoism is Japan’s Indigenous Religion! Which is the worship and rooted belief in divine spirits & deities known as Kami. They are believed to inhabit natural objects such as Trees, Rocks, rivers, ancestors, and even remarkable people. It is not about strict rules as Shinto focuses on living sincerely, staying pure, and finding harmony with the natural world. People would often show their respect with Offerings and lively festivals celebrating the changing seasons. A way to spot Shinto shrines is by their Torii gates, marking sacred spaces where people come to pray or to take in and be surrounded by the quiet moment.
Yes, I am willing to learn more about Shintoism.
OC INFORMATION
Character Full Name:
“Hello there, my full name is Esmé J. Sterling, but you may call me Ezzie.”
Character Title:
“Many other Karakurians can know me as Maiden Esmee, Maiden Sterling, or Miss Esmee. As my co-workers and fellow spiritual believers refer to me as Esmee or Ezzie.”
Character Age:
“I am 26 years of age.”
Character Marital Status:
“I am unmarried and single as of now!”
Character Nationality:
“ I am ‘Kopino’! A term meaning Korean & Filipino!”
Degree/Certifications (If applicable):
"I would have two, one in Shinto Studies and another in Japanese culture."
Backstory
Esmé J. Sterling, or as most people know her, Ezzie, was born on a humid June afternoon in Manila, Philippines. Her full name carried traces of two worlds—Esmé, a name her mother had chosen from a French novel she loved, and Sterling, her maternal surname, passed down from a grandmother who’d once worked as a teacher in Cebu. The middle initial J came from her absent father’s Korean name, Jin-Woo Kim, a man who had left before she ever learned to walk. Ezzie’s childhood was modest but colorful, filled with the rich textures and sounds of Manila’s streets. Her mother, Lara Sterling, was a hardworking nurse at a local hospital who worked double shifts to keep them afloat. The two lived in a small apartment above a bakery, the smell of freshly baked pandesal often waking Ezzie in the mornings. Lara spoke softly and smiled often, but her eyes always held a quiet weariness. Whenever Ezzie asked about her father, her mother would simply say, “He’s from far away, anak. Some people are meant to visit our lives, not stay.” Though she never knew him, Ezzie inherited small pieces of Jin-Woo—her sharp cheekbones, her pale complexion, the way her eyes curved when she smiled. Growing up as a Kopino, a child of mixed Korean and Filipino descent, wasn’t easy. Some children teased her for “looking different,” while others treated her like an outsider. But Ezzie was resilient. She learned to blend in by being kind, smart, and hardworking. Her mother’s words—“Don’t let others decide who you are”—stayed with her like a shield. As a child, Ezzie was endlessly curious. She loved to write stories about people she imagined—shopkeepers, bus drivers, stray cats that wandered the street at night. Her mother encouraged her creative side, even when money was tight. Lara would bring home discarded notebooks from the hospital, and Ezzie filled every page with sketches, poems, and dreams of other places. When she was fifteen, everything changed. Lara fell ill with a lung condition that worsened rapidly. Ezzie spent most of her teenage years balancing school, caregiving, and part-time tutoring jobs. She matured quickly—too quickly, some would say. Her once carefree imagination turned into something deeper: a determination to build a better future, not just for herself, but to honor her mother’s sacrifices. When her mother passed away just before Ezzie’s nineteenth birthday, the world suddenly felt too big and too empty. With no close relatives to rely on, she took a leap of faith—applying for a student visa to South Korea. Her dream wasn’t just to see the place her father came from; it was to find the missing part of herself that Manila could no longer give her. Seoul was a shock to the system. The cold winters bit through her thin coats, the language sounded sharp and fast, and the people, while polite, often stared a little too long when she spoke with a Filipino accent. But Ezzie adapted. She always had. She enrolled in a local language program, balancing classes with part-time work at a small café tucked between university streets. There, she met others like her—foreign students, mixed-heritage locals, and people simply trying to belong somewhere. Slowly, she began to see Seoul not just as her father’s homeland, but as her own proving ground. Ezzie’s curiosity led her to study communication and media, drawn by the power of stories to connect people across cultures. Her professors noticed her skill in writing essays and features, especially when she wrote about identity, culture, and belonging. Her article, “Half and Whole: Living Between Two Worlds,” published in a student magazine, earned unexpected attention online. Readers connected to her honesty—her words resonated with others who also lived in-between languages, traditions, and expectations. Still, her journey wasn’t without pain. She eventually discovered fragments of truth about her father: he had a wife and son in Busan, and though he once sent money to her mother, he stopped after remarrying. When Ezzie first learned this, she felt a deep bitterness—years of wondering, of silently hoping, had led to a truth she didn’t want to hear. But over time, she found peace in acceptance. She realized her identity was not defined by the man who left, but by the woman who stayed—and by her own choices. By twenty-six, Ezzie had built a quiet but meaningful life. She worked as a freelance writer and translator, moving between English, Korean, and Tagalog with ease. Her small apartment in Seoul was filled with notebooks, Polaroid photos, and trinkets from both of her homes. On weekends, she volunteered at a local youth center, helping other multicultural children improve their English and confidence. She saw herself in their eyes—the same uncertainty, the same yearning to belong. When people asked where she was “really from,” Ezzie would smile and say, “A little from everywhere.” She learned that identity isn’t about choosing one side—it’s about embracing the mixture of all your stories. Esmé “Ezzie” J. Sterling is a woman shaped by resilience, empathy, and self-discovery. Though her past is stitched with loss and unanswered questions, she carries it with quiet pride. She’s learned to turn her pain into prose, her uncertainty into ambition, and her solitude into strength. Every word she writes is a bridge between the worlds that made her—and every story she tells is a reminder that sometimes, the truest home is the one you create for yourself.
CHARACTER KNOWLEDGE / SITUATIONS
How does your character act around the shrine grounds? How do they interact with guests and other staff?
Upon entering the shrine, she would bow down in front of the torii gates while passing, her beliefs and thoughts on the kami were very real. Esmee walks with Silent and graceful steps as she stays composed and concentrated. When seeing and welcoming guests, she will bow her head and greet them with kindness as well as offering them tea, as well as snacks. If the guests were to ever need her assistance in anything, she would simply silently listen to them and answer when it is her turn to speak. While speaking in these manners, she will remain as respectful and kind as possible to not invade/intervene in their ranting and beliefs. While she is kind to guests, she is rather a lovely spirit to be around, co-worker-wise, as she is just as sweet and respectful to anyone else. Esmee is rather easy to approach as she gives off a comforting feeling that can and will ease any uneasy vibes around her.
You see a guest jumping around the roofs of the building and overall disrespecting the shrine grounds. How would your character handle it?
If any guest begins climbing and jumping across roofs as well as off of them, she will simply be worried whether or not any injuries will occur; she would kindly ask them to please stop doing such and to get down safely. During this, Esmee would explain how dangerous it is to be jumping around the roofs of the shrine, as it is on a mountain and could cause many great dangers and injuries. She would also explain how it is disrespectful to the kami and other spirits that linger. If the guests continue to do so and ignore her word of warning, she will call the police and report the individual as a trespasser
Why does your character want to become a shrine maiden/priest? What do they wish to achieve?
Esmee wants to join the ranks of the maidens because she admires them, as well as looks up to them. She strongly believes in the Kami and feels as if she would do great in being a shrine maiden herself. They had helped her through her own troubles as well as recover from her past mistakes, providing her with comfort and care that she hadn't experienced since her mother's passing. She wishes to take part in preserving her Shinto culture, as well as educating those who are interested in learning Shinto. She sees the shrine as her second home, normally spending time there and talking with the shrine staff who are present. She wishes the spread the kindness that was once given to her by others.
What are the core values of your character?
Ezzie carries deep compassion for others, often acting as a quiet support system for friends or co-workers. She’s sensitive to others’ emotions, even when they’re unspoken. This value drives her work, relationships, and creativity — she sees connection as the most powerful form of healing.
“Understanding someone’s silence says more than listening to their words.”
Character Appearance:
Esme stands at 5’3, she carries short wavy ginger hair that perfectly cups her face as it is always worn up into a side pony. She carries emerald green eyes and a sweet look to her with flashed smiles. When approaching or walking past her she gives off the scent of Vanilla and freshly brewed tea. She dresses in formal clothing as well as Kimonos most of the time. She appears to be on the thicker side for her body as she is a bit chubby, but behind the slight chubby she can be seen with a bit of muscle when the strength is needed. She has a large birthmark on the left of her shoulder which people often mistake as a scar.
