Player Information
What is your Minecraft username?:
Vexosphere
Do you have Discord (If so, what is your discord username?):
My discord tag is @Vexosphere
How old are you? (Optional):
I'm 21 years old, turning 22 in 8th April (exactly when applications are checked, heh!)
What is your time zone?:
I'm from Poland, therefore I'm in GMT+1 timezone!
Describe your activity on the server:
I'm gonna be completely honest, as much as I'd want, CURRENTLY I am not active on the server. I mean, I do log in regularly, but I haven't engaged in too many roleplay opportunities. I used to have similar problem on SRP in the past, and joining faction always boosted my motivation to be active. When I first time joined student council, I became VERY active on the server, and I mean it, my peak reached spending 24 hours on the server which honestly, I'm not proud of, but back then I was pretty much addicted from the server. When my journey with the student council ended, my activity dropped, because being a councilor was a very part of my old character. Situation behind my removal also pretty much annoyed me to the point of quitting SRP for months. Then, after long time, current vice-president encouraged me to apply, which I didn't really want to, but I saw OG people applying, so I thought it'd be nice to re-join the faction. I applied as Neon Hayasaka, character pretty much known on the server, and this time not for JUST being a councillor. Her arc in student council ended really quickly, and it didn't stop me from developing this character. She became a journalist, a higher up in the club itself later. Her background lore, and active lore in Karakura was pretty much insanely good, during playing her, I had most of the fun on SRP I ever could. She was my absolutely favorite character of all times. And probably I'd have continued playing her if not some other situations that discouraged me from the server; shopping district incident, incident in the journalism club... Yeah. Something that I didn't mention is, I had a secondary character, Ga-yoon Jaibatsume, she's officially related to Mee-young Jaibatsume and used to be a shrine staff member (which I quit due to again, discourage from server when all those stuff happened) Although this character wasn't that well known, she was my little masterpiece. More about that character I will talk about in further, IC sections. In summary? I've been very active on the server, my playtime is 28w 6d 3h (4851 hours)
Do you acknowledge that if you are inactive you will be demoted?:
Absolutely. And honestly? I'm not the type who will occupy the slot if they're inactive. I stepped down from Shrine when I found myself to be really inactive, I wasn't removed for it. I think it's important to be fair towards other players and let them try something new if you're not active.
Link(s) to any previous applications and appeals on the server:
https://schoolrp.net/threads/vexosphere-shrine-application.81580/ (Accepted)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/vexosphere’s-shrine-maiden-application.78905/ (Denied)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/highschool-council-neon-mizu-hayasaka.74988/ (Accepted)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/highschool-council-neon-mizu-hayasaka.69531/ (Denied)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/highschool-council-neon-mizu-akihito.65903/ (Denied)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/furnacerp-hs-council-application.57462/ (Accepted)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/vexospheres-ban-appeal.65706/ (Denied)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/vexospheres-ban-appeal.65885/ (Accepted)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/vexospheres-ban-appeal.77952/ (Denied)
What are your current role(s) on the server? (If you're in college, specify your degree level):
Adult - Ga-yoon Jaibatsume
College Bachelor - Neon Hayasaka / Hitomi McMullen
Grade 12 - Rinari Jaibatsume / Céline Marot
Dog - Unused
Shop Information
/*You may add your own questions to the format*/
What shop are you applying for?:
Jaibatsume Cosmetics
Why do you want to become a Shopkeeper?:
Again, I am gonna be very honest. While most of the people apply because shopkeepers get lots of money, I really don't care about this aspect. I never thought of SRP as some RPG game where you should grind stuff. In fact, I dislike any grinding aspects on SRP, such as attributes and money, but yeah it's not a place to talk about it. I never really planned to even apply for a Shopkeeper; me and my friend discussed what faction could be attractive. And almost everything except for Hospital didn't interest me. I thought of a shop but I thought it's just too hard to get in. But, there is one thing that I saw, what made me want to apply instantly. My friend sent me a screenshot of your announcement on Karakura town, saying to me; "You wanted to apply for something, lowk having new restaurant would be nice, they open rarely." I entirely skipped what she said about restaurants, seeing Jaibatsume Cosmetics was unowned. "OMG, JAIBATSUME COSMETICS, I'M APPLYING." This, was literally my reaction. Not even colorizing it. I always wanted to work there, but Customable was really busy back then, and I got accepted as a worker, but... the shop never opened again.
I am applying to continue his legacy and make Jaibatsume Cosmetics alive again, and make it the most unique shop in Karakura. This place had extremely big potential, it just never got used properly.
Why should I be accepted?:
I may not be the type of person who will spend lots of money on custom items and make them public in my shop, in fact there is only one item I bought for my Neon Hayasaka character. Which honestly, it does make stuff harder. It's simply the sad reality. You need custom items in your shop to get interest of people. Or... is it always the case? I want to prove it wrong, that you can have active, popular and attractive shop without spending real money on SRP. And yes, things gonna be much harder to me, because I will have to buy custom items with SRP currency, which I've heard is usually 500k per custom item? This is half of the money Shopkeepers get. But like I said, I don't care about money. I want to make this shop active and if it means I will have to work more, maybe even gain money from other sources like building or tailoring, I will do it.
What do you plan to do with your shop, and what makes it unique?:
I am choosing this specific shop because I plan not to change it’s name or anything. I’d like my character to continue legacy of her sister’s shop. That doesn’t quite mean I will keep it unchanged, absolutely. What am I gonna do with it?
- The most important thing, the interior of the shop. I am a builder and I don’t need anyone to build for me, I believe in my skills. I plan to make a neat space in the theme of shop, but also make everything absolutely clear. No overdecorating, no abusing furnitures. I am gonna build the shop with my own hands and make sure it DOES make great impression for every player entering it. What personally annoys me very much in some shops are repeated signs of items. I am not gonna do it, I believe this breaks the clarity and makes shop way more messy.
- Every shop needs its discord server. And here again I come with huge experience again, I own a Discord Server outside the SRP, which means I have skill when it comes to managing it, creating it and etc. Discord of Jaibatsume Cosmetics already exists which means if I get the ownership transfer, I will be able to manage it properly and even add new features without anyone’s help.
- I plan to throw away items that are boring or simply decrease the price. This is the fact, no one wants to buy public item for the same price or slightly smaller. I will limit the amount of boring items and make sure players have always something nice to buy. I remember the shop having lots of the items that no one really wanted to buy, I am going to try having unique custom items in our offer; I will accept the items that actually fit the theme of shop, not just anything that comes first.
- Jaibatsume Cosmetics used to have its own tailoring business inside its discord server since the shop was based on cosmetology; I plan to revive it and actually take care of it, and have the unique tailors inside our shop.
- Events. Do I need to say more about it? As a shopkeeper you need to gain interest. And what is the better way of doing it than events? Sales, mystery boxes, maybe some unique changes to the shop basing on the time (like for example Christmas decorations when it’s winter and having workers wear Santa hat, when it’s halloween, then spooky decorations, maybe some outfits or scary masks) possibilities are endless, the only thing you can be limited by is creativity, which I am very creative! I used to plan big server events for Student Council along old presidents, I do have experience when it comes to making stuff interesting! And those ideas, its really basic stuff, but on that I will focus in different section in my application.
- Advertisements. They are very important, no? I’d make sure each advertisement is unique but also clean and neat. Something that also annoys me when it comes to others shops is the lack of coordinates. I’d never forget about such a crucial stuff, it’s important for every player to know the direction. I believe I am pretty good at aesthetics, which would for sure catch an eye even during intense role play of other players.
What will you sell in your shop?:
How many employees do you plan to have?:
I plan to have that many employees as I need. I believe that I will be able to manage the shop and attend almost every opening. I already have few trusted people I could rely on when it comes to events and first shop openings. I plan to have at least eight workers in my shop.
Shop Event Ideas:
- Seasonal changes; I already explained it
- Selling actual clothes; since the shop with also function as tailoring service, once per week, I will get 5 outfits from my tailors and pay for them. I would hire 5 people to act as living mannequin, having them display outfits. The sign would inform of outfit's name and price. I'd put one worker or myself in charge of it, receiving payments and sending file Out-Of-Character, but also giving the bundle In-Character by action.
Extra
Character Full Name:
Ga-yoon Jaibatsume
Character Title:
Ms. Jaibatsume
Character Age:
24
Character Marital Status:
Single, not married
Character Nationality:
Korean
Degree/Certifications (If applicable):
Bachelors in Psychology
Character Backstory:
Chapter 0 - Introduction
Ga-yoon Jaibatsume grew up in a small estate in Fukui, she is one of six children in the respected Jaibatsume family. The girl held an unusual calmness, she was reserved and typically unspoken, not drawing much attention from crowds or individuals around her. Because of this, she was not the target of her father Kenzou, who abused Mee-young and Eden. She was simply an obedient child, doing her best to satisfy her parents' expectations. She was helping her family in their business and didn't expect anything in return.
Chapter 1 - The spider's web
Ga-yoon always lived in ilusion, grown in household where everything was clear, rules, hierarchy, etc. She was sure that everything was in its correct place. Kenzou Mawji, the authority of the family - was strict and stern, which seemed normal for the head of the family. Ga-yoon had never questioned this arrangement. Until that night. An ordinary quiet night, she woke up and got out of bed, thirstiest of all. She went to grab herself a glass of water, however on the way, she've heard something. Was it sobbing? She had no ideea. Ga-yoon started to approach the room from which the sounds were coming. She swung the door open and saw something that changed her perspective forever - her ideals and reality had crumbled in half. The father she respected was not really who he claimed to be. Kenzou Mawji, the father she had respected for so long was anything but a father to his children, he was a monster. Mee-young curled up on the floor, making Ga-yoon's vision towards her sister change drastically. Ga-yoon felt anger towards her father. This is not how it should be, the girl thought. The sight of her father above Mee-young, above her like the shadow of a beast, like something inevitable, inescapable. Like a force that no one could oppose. Ga-yoon quietly closed the door, not uttering a word, not wanting to make her presence known. For days, weeks, months, she walked with this knowledge, her shoulders transfixed, this vision hard to bear. Too heavy. What had once seemed certain to her - the hierarchy in the family, her vision.... had all been brutally trampled by this one random situation she had witnessed. Ga-yoon blamed herself for not seeing anything before, she couldn't bear the fact that she was so blind. However, this situation did not make Ga-yoon suddenly a heroine. She didn't throw herself into battle, she wasn't even able to raise her voice against her father. This discovery destroyed her childhood in an instant. Ga-yoon locked herself in her dark burrow, a cave where no one was allowed to enter. The girl never left it for a moment; it was her safe zone. When she had any contact with her father, she looked at him differently. Ga-yoon kept her distance, knowing that if she played this game inappropriately, she would become a victim of his tyranny herself. The girl dared not say anything against Kenzou out loud. She was not the heroine of the story, Ga-yoon was merely an observer, a spectator who joined in too late to react appropriately. This silence, her silence, and lack of reaction became her greatest burden. Ga-yoon could have reacted, but she did not. She began to hate herself for it. Even her mirror reflection made the girl feel an inner disgust towards herself. Ga-yoon, while painting herself using a mirror given for her birthday by her mother, Yumi Jaibatsume, finally couldn't stand it. A ‚spider web’ appeared on the mirror. Ga-yoon deliberately cracked it.
Chapter 2 - The mask of nonchalance
After the traumatic discovery of the physical abuse that Ga-yoon discovered, her vision lay in ruins. She avoided her father and siblings, as she spent most of her time locked in her room. She'd only leave her room to help mother with chores but it was not always the case. Ga-yoon struggled to understand her new reality. However, life went on and school duties evolved due to her absence from school. Mee-young, her older sister, despite her situation, continued studies with her extreme determination. Her strength was an inspiration but also a reminder of Ga-yoon's weakness. The girl was later filled with admiration when Mee-young fought against her monsters at school. Watching her sister, Ga-yoon realized that she had to find a way to survive in her new reality. The girl adopted a 'mask' of nonchalance - an apparent indifference designed to protect her fragile insides from further cracks. Ga-yoon's new attitude allowed her to hide her emotions, as well as giving her the illusion of strength and confidence. As time passed, Ga-yoon mastered this art to perfection. Ga-yoon's face was completely blank from this point. Her mask became her shield, that was meant to protect her from the cruel world. Beneath it, there was a deep scar that no one was able to heal.
Chapter 3 - The growing shadow of an ideal
Jade Jaibatsume was never Ga-yoon's favorite - but she wasn't an intruder to her even though she didn't share blood with her. However, that changed when Jade began to find herself better at home than Ga-yoon herself. Even Mee-young herself seemed to like Jade better. Moreover, the girl easily won the sympathy of the teachers. This hurt, but Ga-yoon couldn't admit it. Instead, the girl let jealousy turn into anger. Jade, the girl who shouldn't be here, fit in here better than Ga-yoon. She was closer to the ideal than she was - and she hated that. Ga-yoon decided to prevent this. Instead of trying to become the best version of herself, the girl preferred to make Jade worse. It all started with biting comments, questioning her value and place in the family, and ironic smiles that made every praise Jade received taste bitter. However, this was not enough for Ga-yoon. The girl was going to go one step further. It was going to have to hurt her. Before turning to violence, Ga-yoon was clipping her wings. Her belongings disappeared, her notes were destroyed, and she found hidden messages undermining her place in the family. Ga-yoon was telling Jade that they had found her in a dumpster and that her parents had left her. Yet despite this, Jade could only be harmed by Ga-yoon. When someone accosted her, the girl would stand up for her younger sister. Jade was her puppet to play with. Ga-yoon who was unable to stop her father from abusing Mee-young, who was just an observer without any control. But in her relationship with Jade, it was she who dictated the terms, she who decided how much pain Jade would receive. And surprisingly, Ga-yoon did not want to destroy her. Ga-yoon believed that if she had control over someone, she could stop further cracks in her mirror. However, hurting Jade was taking its toll on herself. Ga-yoon didn't want or couldn't admit that deep down she admired Jade. Her ego did not allow it. The girl preferred to hurt her instead.
Chapter 4 - Hollow Laughter
Ga-yoon and her sisters' father were murdered by Winter Jaibatsume herself. The news reached her quickly. Although she was distanced from her father after the event she had witnessed, his death triggered an avalanche of feelings in the girl that flooded her. Ga-yoon who had formed a mask of nonchalance could not use it this time. Ga-yoon was filled with chaos. Death of her father reminded her of everything once again. On the other hand, she was happy that reason for her sibling's suffer was gone. But also, she felt a bit empty inside and lost. In a way, however, the girl had become like her father. The mask of nonchalance reappeared on her face and with it a loud laugh. Almost hysterical. Ga-yoon amid the gathered family members simply started laughing.
"So that's it then? So much mess, and the ending so simple?"
Ga-yoon's reaction shocked the sisters who were abused by Kenzou. It was as if the girl was aware, and knew more than the rest. Her eyes, as cool as night-lit water, shone with nonchalance; there was no sadness, regret, or even satisfaction in her. The death of her father for the rest was a relief. For her, it was nothing, or at least that's how she tried to show it. Inside the girl was nevertheless boiling.
"Well, maybe at least we'll have peace." she uttered these words after which she simply left the meeting.
Additional notes about your application:
Do you have any questions?:
What is your Minecraft username?:
Vexosphere
Do you have Discord (If so, what is your discord username?):
My discord tag is @Vexosphere
How old are you? (Optional):
I'm 21 years old, turning 22 in 8th April (exactly when applications are checked, heh!)
What is your time zone?:
I'm from Poland, therefore I'm in GMT+1 timezone!
Describe your activity on the server:
I'm gonna be completely honest, as much as I'd want, CURRENTLY I am not active on the server. I mean, I do log in regularly, but I haven't engaged in too many roleplay opportunities. I used to have similar problem on SRP in the past, and joining faction always boosted my motivation to be active. When I first time joined student council, I became VERY active on the server, and I mean it, my peak reached spending 24 hours on the server which honestly, I'm not proud of, but back then I was pretty much addicted from the server. When my journey with the student council ended, my activity dropped, because being a councilor was a very part of my old character. Situation behind my removal also pretty much annoyed me to the point of quitting SRP for months. Then, after long time, current vice-president encouraged me to apply, which I didn't really want to, but I saw OG people applying, so I thought it'd be nice to re-join the faction. I applied as Neon Hayasaka, character pretty much known on the server, and this time not for JUST being a councillor. Her arc in student council ended really quickly, and it didn't stop me from developing this character. She became a journalist, a higher up in the club itself later. Her background lore, and active lore in Karakura was pretty much insanely good, during playing her, I had most of the fun on SRP I ever could. She was my absolutely favorite character of all times. And probably I'd have continued playing her if not some other situations that discouraged me from the server; shopping district incident, incident in the journalism club... Yeah. Something that I didn't mention is, I had a secondary character, Ga-yoon Jaibatsume, she's officially related to Mee-young Jaibatsume and used to be a shrine staff member (which I quit due to again, discourage from server when all those stuff happened) Although this character wasn't that well known, she was my little masterpiece. More about that character I will talk about in further, IC sections. In summary? I've been very active on the server, my playtime is 28w 6d 3h (4851 hours)
Do you acknowledge that if you are inactive you will be demoted?:
Absolutely. And honestly? I'm not the type who will occupy the slot if they're inactive. I stepped down from Shrine when I found myself to be really inactive, I wasn't removed for it. I think it's important to be fair towards other players and let them try something new if you're not active.
Link(s) to any previous applications and appeals on the server:
https://schoolrp.net/threads/vexosphere-shrine-application.81580/ (Accepted)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/vexosphere’s-shrine-maiden-application.78905/ (Denied)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/highschool-council-neon-mizu-hayasaka.74988/ (Accepted)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/highschool-council-neon-mizu-hayasaka.69531/ (Denied)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/highschool-council-neon-mizu-akihito.65903/ (Denied)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/furnacerp-hs-council-application.57462/ (Accepted)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/vexospheres-ban-appeal.65706/ (Denied)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/vexospheres-ban-appeal.65885/ (Accepted)
https://schoolrp.net/threads/vexospheres-ban-appeal.77952/ (Denied)
What are your current role(s) on the server? (If you're in college, specify your degree level):
Adult - Ga-yoon Jaibatsume
College Bachelor - Neon Hayasaka / Hitomi McMullen
Grade 12 - Rinari Jaibatsume / Céline Marot
Dog - Unused
Shop Information
/*You may add your own questions to the format*/
What shop are you applying for?:
Jaibatsume Cosmetics
Why do you want to become a Shopkeeper?:
Again, I am gonna be very honest. While most of the people apply because shopkeepers get lots of money, I really don't care about this aspect. I never thought of SRP as some RPG game where you should grind stuff. In fact, I dislike any grinding aspects on SRP, such as attributes and money, but yeah it's not a place to talk about it. I never really planned to even apply for a Shopkeeper; me and my friend discussed what faction could be attractive. And almost everything except for Hospital didn't interest me. I thought of a shop but I thought it's just too hard to get in. But, there is one thing that I saw, what made me want to apply instantly. My friend sent me a screenshot of your announcement on Karakura town, saying to me; "You wanted to apply for something, lowk having new restaurant would be nice, they open rarely." I entirely skipped what she said about restaurants, seeing Jaibatsume Cosmetics was unowned. "OMG, JAIBATSUME COSMETICS, I'M APPLYING." This, was literally my reaction. Not even colorizing it. I always wanted to work there, but Customable was really busy back then, and I got accepted as a worker, but... the shop never opened again.
I am applying to continue his legacy and make Jaibatsume Cosmetics alive again, and make it the most unique shop in Karakura. This place had extremely big potential, it just never got used properly.
Why should I be accepted?:
I may not be the type of person who will spend lots of money on custom items and make them public in my shop, in fact there is only one item I bought for my Neon Hayasaka character. Which honestly, it does make stuff harder. It's simply the sad reality. You need custom items in your shop to get interest of people. Or... is it always the case? I want to prove it wrong, that you can have active, popular and attractive shop without spending real money on SRP. And yes, things gonna be much harder to me, because I will have to buy custom items with SRP currency, which I've heard is usually 500k per custom item? This is half of the money Shopkeepers get. But like I said, I don't care about money. I want to make this shop active and if it means I will have to work more, maybe even gain money from other sources like building or tailoring, I will do it.
What do you plan to do with your shop, and what makes it unique?:
I am choosing this specific shop because I plan not to change it’s name or anything. I’d like my character to continue legacy of her sister’s shop. That doesn’t quite mean I will keep it unchanged, absolutely. What am I gonna do with it?
- The most important thing, the interior of the shop. I am a builder and I don’t need anyone to build for me, I believe in my skills. I plan to make a neat space in the theme of shop, but also make everything absolutely clear. No overdecorating, no abusing furnitures. I am gonna build the shop with my own hands and make sure it DOES make great impression for every player entering it. What personally annoys me very much in some shops are repeated signs of items. I am not gonna do it, I believe this breaks the clarity and makes shop way more messy.
- Every shop needs its discord server. And here again I come with huge experience again, I own a Discord Server outside the SRP, which means I have skill when it comes to managing it, creating it and etc. Discord of Jaibatsume Cosmetics already exists which means if I get the ownership transfer, I will be able to manage it properly and even add new features without anyone’s help.
- I plan to throw away items that are boring or simply decrease the price. This is the fact, no one wants to buy public item for the same price or slightly smaller. I will limit the amount of boring items and make sure players have always something nice to buy. I remember the shop having lots of the items that no one really wanted to buy, I am going to try having unique custom items in our offer; I will accept the items that actually fit the theme of shop, not just anything that comes first.
- Jaibatsume Cosmetics used to have its own tailoring business inside its discord server since the shop was based on cosmetology; I plan to revive it and actually take care of it, and have the unique tailors inside our shop.
- Events. Do I need to say more about it? As a shopkeeper you need to gain interest. And what is the better way of doing it than events? Sales, mystery boxes, maybe some unique changes to the shop basing on the time (like for example Christmas decorations when it’s winter and having workers wear Santa hat, when it’s halloween, then spooky decorations, maybe some outfits or scary masks) possibilities are endless, the only thing you can be limited by is creativity, which I am very creative! I used to plan big server events for Student Council along old presidents, I do have experience when it comes to making stuff interesting! And those ideas, its really basic stuff, but on that I will focus in different section in my application.
- Advertisements. They are very important, no? I’d make sure each advertisement is unique but also clean and neat. Something that also annoys me when it comes to others shops is the lack of coordinates. I’d never forget about such a crucial stuff, it’s important for every player to know the direction. I believe I am pretty good at aesthetics, which would for sure catch an eye even during intense role play of other players.
What will you sell in your shop?:
How many employees do you plan to have?:
I plan to have that many employees as I need. I believe that I will be able to manage the shop and attend almost every opening. I already have few trusted people I could rely on when it comes to events and first shop openings. I plan to have at least eight workers in my shop.
Shop Event Ideas:
- Seasonal changes; I already explained it
- Selling actual clothes; since the shop with also function as tailoring service, once per week, I will get 5 outfits from my tailors and pay for them. I would hire 5 people to act as living mannequin, having them display outfits. The sign would inform of outfit's name and price. I'd put one worker or myself in charge of it, receiving payments and sending file Out-Of-Character, but also giving the bundle In-Character by action.
Extra
Character Full Name:
Ga-yoon Jaibatsume
Character Title:
Ms. Jaibatsume
Character Age:
24
Character Marital Status:
Single, not married
Character Nationality:
Korean
Degree/Certifications (If applicable):
Bachelors in Psychology
Character Backstory:
Chapter 0 - Introduction
Ga-yoon Jaibatsume grew up in a small estate in Fukui, she is one of six children in the respected Jaibatsume family. The girl held an unusual calmness, she was reserved and typically unspoken, not drawing much attention from crowds or individuals around her. Because of this, she was not the target of her father Kenzou, who abused Mee-young and Eden. She was simply an obedient child, doing her best to satisfy her parents' expectations. She was helping her family in their business and didn't expect anything in return.
Chapter 1 - The spider's web
Ga-yoon always lived in ilusion, grown in household where everything was clear, rules, hierarchy, etc. She was sure that everything was in its correct place. Kenzou Mawji, the authority of the family - was strict and stern, which seemed normal for the head of the family. Ga-yoon had never questioned this arrangement. Until that night. An ordinary quiet night, she woke up and got out of bed, thirstiest of all. She went to grab herself a glass of water, however on the way, she've heard something. Was it sobbing? She had no ideea. Ga-yoon started to approach the room from which the sounds were coming. She swung the door open and saw something that changed her perspective forever - her ideals and reality had crumbled in half. The father she respected was not really who he claimed to be. Kenzou Mawji, the father she had respected for so long was anything but a father to his children, he was a monster. Mee-young curled up on the floor, making Ga-yoon's vision towards her sister change drastically. Ga-yoon felt anger towards her father. This is not how it should be, the girl thought. The sight of her father above Mee-young, above her like the shadow of a beast, like something inevitable, inescapable. Like a force that no one could oppose. Ga-yoon quietly closed the door, not uttering a word, not wanting to make her presence known. For days, weeks, months, she walked with this knowledge, her shoulders transfixed, this vision hard to bear. Too heavy. What had once seemed certain to her - the hierarchy in the family, her vision.... had all been brutally trampled by this one random situation she had witnessed. Ga-yoon blamed herself for not seeing anything before, she couldn't bear the fact that she was so blind. However, this situation did not make Ga-yoon suddenly a heroine. She didn't throw herself into battle, she wasn't even able to raise her voice against her father. This discovery destroyed her childhood in an instant. Ga-yoon locked herself in her dark burrow, a cave where no one was allowed to enter. The girl never left it for a moment; it was her safe zone. When she had any contact with her father, she looked at him differently. Ga-yoon kept her distance, knowing that if she played this game inappropriately, she would become a victim of his tyranny herself. The girl dared not say anything against Kenzou out loud. She was not the heroine of the story, Ga-yoon was merely an observer, a spectator who joined in too late to react appropriately. This silence, her silence, and lack of reaction became her greatest burden. Ga-yoon could have reacted, but she did not. She began to hate herself for it. Even her mirror reflection made the girl feel an inner disgust towards herself. Ga-yoon, while painting herself using a mirror given for her birthday by her mother, Yumi Jaibatsume, finally couldn't stand it. A ‚spider web’ appeared on the mirror. Ga-yoon deliberately cracked it.
Chapter 2 - The mask of nonchalance
After the traumatic discovery of the physical abuse that Ga-yoon discovered, her vision lay in ruins. She avoided her father and siblings, as she spent most of her time locked in her room. She'd only leave her room to help mother with chores but it was not always the case. Ga-yoon struggled to understand her new reality. However, life went on and school duties evolved due to her absence from school. Mee-young, her older sister, despite her situation, continued studies with her extreme determination. Her strength was an inspiration but also a reminder of Ga-yoon's weakness. The girl was later filled with admiration when Mee-young fought against her monsters at school. Watching her sister, Ga-yoon realized that she had to find a way to survive in her new reality. The girl adopted a 'mask' of nonchalance - an apparent indifference designed to protect her fragile insides from further cracks. Ga-yoon's new attitude allowed her to hide her emotions, as well as giving her the illusion of strength and confidence. As time passed, Ga-yoon mastered this art to perfection. Ga-yoon's face was completely blank from this point. Her mask became her shield, that was meant to protect her from the cruel world. Beneath it, there was a deep scar that no one was able to heal.
Chapter 3 - The growing shadow of an ideal
Jade Jaibatsume was never Ga-yoon's favorite - but she wasn't an intruder to her even though she didn't share blood with her. However, that changed when Jade began to find herself better at home than Ga-yoon herself. Even Mee-young herself seemed to like Jade better. Moreover, the girl easily won the sympathy of the teachers. This hurt, but Ga-yoon couldn't admit it. Instead, the girl let jealousy turn into anger. Jade, the girl who shouldn't be here, fit in here better than Ga-yoon. She was closer to the ideal than she was - and she hated that. Ga-yoon decided to prevent this. Instead of trying to become the best version of herself, the girl preferred to make Jade worse. It all started with biting comments, questioning her value and place in the family, and ironic smiles that made every praise Jade received taste bitter. However, this was not enough for Ga-yoon. The girl was going to go one step further. It was going to have to hurt her. Before turning to violence, Ga-yoon was clipping her wings. Her belongings disappeared, her notes were destroyed, and she found hidden messages undermining her place in the family. Ga-yoon was telling Jade that they had found her in a dumpster and that her parents had left her. Yet despite this, Jade could only be harmed by Ga-yoon. When someone accosted her, the girl would stand up for her younger sister. Jade was her puppet to play with. Ga-yoon who was unable to stop her father from abusing Mee-young, who was just an observer without any control. But in her relationship with Jade, it was she who dictated the terms, she who decided how much pain Jade would receive. And surprisingly, Ga-yoon did not want to destroy her. Ga-yoon believed that if she had control over someone, she could stop further cracks in her mirror. However, hurting Jade was taking its toll on herself. Ga-yoon didn't want or couldn't admit that deep down she admired Jade. Her ego did not allow it. The girl preferred to hurt her instead.
Chapter 4 - Hollow Laughter
Ga-yoon and her sisters' father were murdered by Winter Jaibatsume herself. The news reached her quickly. Although she was distanced from her father after the event she had witnessed, his death triggered an avalanche of feelings in the girl that flooded her. Ga-yoon who had formed a mask of nonchalance could not use it this time. Ga-yoon was filled with chaos. Death of her father reminded her of everything once again. On the other hand, she was happy that reason for her sibling's suffer was gone. But also, she felt a bit empty inside and lost. In a way, however, the girl had become like her father. The mask of nonchalance reappeared on her face and with it a loud laugh. Almost hysterical. Ga-yoon amid the gathered family members simply started laughing.
"So that's it then? So much mess, and the ending so simple?"
Ga-yoon's reaction shocked the sisters who were abused by Kenzou. It was as if the girl was aware, and knew more than the rest. Her eyes, as cool as night-lit water, shone with nonchalance; there was no sadness, regret, or even satisfaction in her. The death of her father for the rest was a relief. For her, it was nothing, or at least that's how she tried to show it. Inside the girl was nevertheless boiling.
"Well, maybe at least we'll have peace." she uttered these words after which she simply left the meeting.
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