this is long overdue, and for that i apologise.
recently i took a rather abrupt, to some surprising leave to SRP. now, there are many reasonings behind my leavings yet im just going to place the key ones within this thread, if you wish to know more or wish to ask me questions regarding this, my discord is mckamsym
as of the 27th of this month i would have been playing this server for two years on the dot. doing that, and getting absoloutely no where is both draining on me, and not useful to the community in anyway. i admit, since my return in december last year i did make some progress, making my way to governor- yet something just didn't sit right for me. i found this constant just ideology of not doing enough for this server compared to those around me that just completely drained me, unhealthily by the way for a random minecraft server. alot of the time i spent on this server was spent genuienly just trying to strive to be enough for this server or hold some form of importance or remembarance. and the most ive gotten from my leave is around three close friends keeping in touch.
furthermore, i've struggled physically with cancer on and off for that last year, which never really helped with anything. along with the mental draining, the physical side effects of having my body fight itself is far more demanding than a literal block game.
moreover, the irony of playing a school server whilst being an active student in real life hit like a brick when it came to examination season and i simply couldnt focus on this as much. with this, i ended up not really missing this server nor being drawn to it and so i slowly.. dispersed.
obviously, this isnt just a rant and i have a few people to thank.
kpts: you, my friend are one of the only people from srp that still talk to me regularly. you helped me whether you know it or not with getting back into gangrp and have always been someone ive had contact with throughout the last few months of my journey. being in bisha with you really helped for my last few moments and i thankyou for everything that you did during that time.
x7: the man, the myth and the original ilmp. i thank you for being one of the only others to even dm me after my leave on this server, youve stayed in touch and reached me as not only a friend on this stupid game but someone i can talk to about irl shit as well. youre good for that.
e: you helped alot with my motivation
the ogs of the dododoododod server [you know who you are]: you all helped with my namemcs days, i thank you for that
miya: you helped alot with things like mental issues, general motivation and generally were one of the first people who seemed intrested in me as a friend outside of srp. that was nice to have.
if you feel you are forgotten, dm me and ill assure you my opinions.
for the last time, im out.
recently i took a rather abrupt, to some surprising leave to SRP. now, there are many reasonings behind my leavings yet im just going to place the key ones within this thread, if you wish to know more or wish to ask me questions regarding this, my discord is mckamsym
as of the 27th of this month i would have been playing this server for two years on the dot. doing that, and getting absoloutely no where is both draining on me, and not useful to the community in anyway. i admit, since my return in december last year i did make some progress, making my way to governor- yet something just didn't sit right for me. i found this constant just ideology of not doing enough for this server compared to those around me that just completely drained me, unhealthily by the way for a random minecraft server. alot of the time i spent on this server was spent genuienly just trying to strive to be enough for this server or hold some form of importance or remembarance. and the most ive gotten from my leave is around three close friends keeping in touch.
furthermore, i've struggled physically with cancer on and off for that last year, which never really helped with anything. along with the mental draining, the physical side effects of having my body fight itself is far more demanding than a literal block game.
moreover, the irony of playing a school server whilst being an active student in real life hit like a brick when it came to examination season and i simply couldnt focus on this as much. with this, i ended up not really missing this server nor being drawn to it and so i slowly.. dispersed.
obviously, this isnt just a rant and i have a few people to thank.
kpts: you, my friend are one of the only people from srp that still talk to me regularly. you helped me whether you know it or not with getting back into gangrp and have always been someone ive had contact with throughout the last few months of my journey. being in bisha with you really helped for my last few moments and i thankyou for everything that you did during that time.
x7: the man, the myth and the original ilmp. i thank you for being one of the only others to even dm me after my leave on this server, youve stayed in touch and reached me as not only a friend on this stupid game but someone i can talk to about irl shit as well. youre good for that.
e: you helped alot with my motivation
the ogs of the dododoododod server [you know who you are]: you all helped with my namemcs days, i thank you for that
miya: you helped alot with things like mental issues, general motivation and generally were one of the first people who seemed intrested in me as a friend outside of srp. that was nice to have.
if you feel you are forgotten, dm me and ill assure you my opinions.
for the last time, im out.
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